I am a very frustrated artist at the moment. I tend to get a wee bit grumpy when I don't have time to create artwork. It's almost like an obsession I have...I have to be creating or I feel like I am wasting time. Very hard to explain but I am sure that other artists and not just artists get this feeling when the are almost 'obsessed' with something. I wonder if this would qualify as a Obsessive Compulsive Disorder? Hmmm...must ask the Doctor if I can ever get one that is.
Which brings me to another frustration. Having a health problem that requires regular monitoring it is very frustrating to find myself unable to obtain a family doctor. I mean, geeze, I have been living in this city for almost 2 years now and still I cannot get one. So for now I travel back and forth to my old family doctor 2 hours away.
So at the moment, due to lack of time, discomfort from my ailment, family obligations and I admit, total disorganization of my art supplies I am getting more and more frustrated by the minute.
I decided to attempt the recyling of grocery bags, as done by another artist I featured previously in SEPTEMBER another blog entry. I thought this might be relaxing and a 'portable' creative outlet I could do anywhere. However, after only one or two evenings of crocheting plastic bags...I developed pain in my right arm from the repetitive motion. At least that's what I think has caused it.
So I look around my place, looking at partly painted canvases, partly finished sculptures in paper mache, numerous pieces of denim clothing waiting to be painted...and I become extremely frustrated.
Time...it moves too swiftly. Sleep...well, I consider it a 'necessary Evil'. So I hope this cycle of running around like a chicken with my head cut off and the ache and pains in my body end soon and I can regroup, be creative and once again spend time doing what I love best...creating art.